kabhi kushi kabhi gham...

bismillahirrahmanirrahim... hmmm...nak mula dari mana ya??sad or happy story... ok...i think a happy story ..dah agak lama tak update my blog nih...(padahal tak sampai pun sebulan lagi).. a few days before i were so happy like in heaven...dapat marks 4 my exam..and alhamdulillah,dapat a good marks...and i 'm happy with that..day after that,also in a good mood...at the first...but then tension!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!as having an argument with my hubby... *sigh*..so to release my great tension tu...aku layan hindustan....kabhi kushi kabhi gham...kadang2 gembira,kadang2 happy...tu lah maksudnya in malay... ya,in our life kadang2 we are so happy and sometimes we are sad..and we only remember ALLAH when we are sad...not all of us,but there are some of us being like that... YA RABBI..AMPUNKAN DOSA2 KAMI.. and today...on 31 august 09 happy as lark as rain...my members are back....laughing together again... oh ya,lupa yang aku khatam balik novel hlovate..(i'm a great fan of hlovate)aA+bB,and 5 tahun 5 bulan... aku tak jemu baca novel hlovate...as i learn something new,everytime i read it...eventhough i had read it for many times... sad story.. i miss my late mum..i miss her voice,miss her touch...really miss her.. i wish that i can be with her...can hug her like before...can kiss her hand... having a chat with my hubby a couple of days before..actually i'm tired..tired of what?? tired to act,to act that i can accept my ibu...my step mum..but the truth is i cannot accept her 100 percent...it is true that she is nice,kind..a responsible wife towards my father,a loving step mum to my sisters...but if and only if i can REALLY accept her... afif said that i have to face this...redha...iqah said a same thing... aku cuba dan selalu cuba... tapi aku tak pernah menang...i'm a loser.... tadi baca 5 tahun 5 bulan,ada terbaca part jo susah hati...and aku baca lines that say surah inSyirah and surah dhuha boleh tenangkan hati... ALLAHUAKBAR... aku mohon kekuatan ya ALLAH,berikanlah aku kekuatan tika ini.. agar dapat aku lalui hidup aku dengan ketenangan...setenang air yang mengalir d syurga MU... i wish there is someone with me...besides me right now to be my crying shoulder....