kabhi kushi kabhi gham...

bismillahirrahmanirrahim... hmmm...nak mula dari mana ya??sad or happy story... ok...i think a happy story ..dah agak lama tak update my blog nih...(padahal tak sampai pun sebulan lagi).. a few days before i were so happy like in heaven...dapat marks 4 my exam..and alhamdulillah,dapat a good marks...and i 'm happy with that..day after that,also in a good mood...at the first...but then tension!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!as having an argument with my hubby... *sigh*..so to release my great tension tu...aku layan hindustan....kabhi kushi kabhi gham...kadang2 gembira,kadang2 happy...tu lah maksudnya in malay... ya,in our life kadang2 we are so happy and sometimes we are sad..and we only remember ALLAH when we are sad...not all of us,but there are some of us being like that... YA RABBI..AMPUNKAN DOSA2 KAMI.. and today...on 31 august 09 happy as lark as rain...my members are back....laughing together again... oh ya,lupa yang aku khatam balik novel hlovate..(i'm a great fan of hlovate)aA+bB,and 5 tahun 5 bulan... aku tak jemu baca novel hlovate...as i learn something new,everytime i read it...eventhough i had read it for many times... sad story.. i miss my late mum..i miss her voice,miss her touch...really miss her.. i wish that i can be with her...can hug her like before...can kiss her hand... having a chat with my hubby a couple of days before..actually i'm tired..tired of what?? tired to act,to act that i can accept my ibu...my step mum..but the truth is i cannot accept her 100 percent...it is true that she is nice,kind..a responsible wife towards my father,a loving step mum to my sisters...but if and only if i can REALLY accept her... afif said that i have to face this...redha...iqah said a same thing... aku cuba dan selalu cuba... tapi aku tak pernah menang...i'm a loser.... tadi baca 5 tahun 5 bulan,ada terbaca part jo susah hati...and aku baca lines that say surah inSyirah and surah dhuha boleh tenangkan hati... ALLAHUAKBAR... aku mohon kekuatan ya ALLAH,berikanlah aku kekuatan tika ini.. agar dapat aku lalui hidup aku dengan ketenangan...setenang air yang mengalir d syurga MU... i wish there is someone with me...besides me right now to be my crying shoulder....

aku ke yang berubah??

bismillahirahmanirrahim... aku tengah bingung sekarang ni...apa kesudahan pjj ni.. aku bingung,,, aku ke yang berubah atau dia yang x leh trima perubahan aku ni... tapi betul ke aku berubah,atau... haila...susah la masuk bab feeling meeling ni... aku ego,tapi dia pun sama...malah lagi ego dari aku........ waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa............................ nak nangis.............

what i've been looking for...

bismillahirahmanirrahim... third day of ramadhan.... alkisahnya hari ini adalah hari yang agak membahagiakan...kenapa ya??entah la..aku pun tak pasti maybe because i'm having a good quality time with my dormmate..lepak sambil study,(diaorang je la yang study,aku tukang sibuk je...)hehehehe..next friday on 4 september is my birthday....nak sambut dengan siapa ye???of course dengan kawan2,.cant wait 4 my present from my hubby.... sekarang ni aku tengah jadi pemerhati tak bertauliah...depan aku ada aini yang tengah pegang kertas,teah yang tengah baring walhal dia ada test arab esok,anis yang tengah jot down something...masitah tengah wat notes,ana dengan zehan yang apit aku...piqa yang tengah gelak...actually diaorang tengah gelak sakan sekarang tapi aku x dengar pape pasal telinga dah kena sumbat headphone..listening to my favourite song by pop shuvit,marabahaya... apa kena mengena tajuk di atas dengan coretan aku ni eak??hmmmm....i think it is about campus life,about friendship... sedar tak sedar aku dah nak masuk 18 tahun..dah nak tua pun...18 tahun...tolak jadi zaman kanak2,jadi pelajar sekolah rendah,pelajar sekolah menengah and now a uni student... so much experiences i had before...final exam just tinggal sebulan je..preparation??entah..ada la sedikit tapi x banyak.. guess what???madam naik bilik kitaorang tadi...gelabah gila...boleh tengok muka gelabah masing2...nasib baik madam okey je.. masing2 boleh jadi pelakon terbaik lah....and the winner goes to teah!!!!!!!!hahahahahaha...memang lakonan yang amat cemerlang tahap tak ingat la...well looks like kitaorang nak gelak je nih...lucu dowh.. mantap..... sayonara....

ukhwah fi abadan abada~

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini bismillahirrahmanirrahim second day of ramadhan,alhamdulillah dapat perform terawih ngn roommate semalam.. kynah,teah and puteri.. and me as a imam...unbelievable..but that is the fact..btw,i would like to thank muny as she help me to upgrade sikit aku punya blog terchenta ni(tersampuk ayat hlovate ag..huhu i'm so sorry hlovate..) 30 september my best friend,sara and my friend rafiqah will fly to egypt to further their study in medic..syukur alhamdulillah... tercapai jugak dream korang nak jadi doctor..and i'm going to be the first patient for both of you..jangan korang bagi sedatif dah..hahahaha..nanti kesian my dear hubby.... knowing both of you make my life so colourful thanks as korang gimme an inspiration,some motivation and moral support.. thank you soo much friends..i will miss you a lot.. p/s:i think better aku stop sekarang before empangan kemubu aku pecah lagi...(T.T)

baru belajar...

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini testing...hmmmmbaru belajar nak upgrade blogku hahaha

friendship..never tear us apart kwn..

tadi ym ngn kwn...gtau flight dia ngn best kawan awal... dan empangan kemubu aku limpah overload....seba..aku hilag kwn di mata...but not in my deep heart.. serius aku x pernah cedih camni....gaduh dengan my hubby pun aku x sesensitif ni.. tapi lau bab friendship..aku kalah... i never have a really good best friend like her...yang kenal aku....luar dlam...tau ape aku akan wat kalau aku rasa something... i never have a friend like her.. we share our joy,our sorrowful,our pain when we are hurt... share...kongsi... tapi nanti dia dudk seberang laut...aku akan jarang dengar suara dia,gelak tawa dia,suara sedih dia...i only can see her in her profile.. aku tak tahu kenape aku kena nangis...tapi hati aku sedih...aku tak tahu kenape aku....ahhhhh....aku sedih!!!!!sedih!!!!!ada sedatif???aku nak...s.e.d.a.t.i.f........................ aku selalu kalah lau dalam friendship...am i a loser????????????????????????????????????????answer me.............

kawan ke??

kreta honda jazz putih bergerak masuk ke halaman villa kasih.dari tingkap bilikku,ku lihat ada orang keluar dari perut kreta tu.tetamu yang mama gtau td kut..selesai membetulkan tdg,aku keluar dari bilik.niat hati nak ke dapur tlong mama hidangkan mkanan,tapi langkah aku terhenti."Eimran??".betul la..oh mama,dont tell me that u r inviting him tonight to be our guest... "haa...bagus laa Asyi dah turun.bawk air ni ke depan.."mama dah bagi arahan.x sempat ngelak dowh.."mama je la bawak.."aku wat muka cian..please ma Asyi x nak hadap muka mamat selfish 2......2 sebenarnya yg aku nk cakap...dulang air bertukar tangan.langkah aku atur ke ruang tamu..dia tengah borak2 ngn papa,along,angah n my twin achik.siap gelak2 lagi. huh,ikutkan aty,aku siram gak ngn air ni kang..achik dah tengok aku pakai aura kembar dia dah..aku angguk..

apa yang aku rasa ni??

semalam aku mimpi..mimpi tentang seseorang,yg dah lama aku x hubungi..atas sebab yang aku sendiri x tahu,x pasti sebenarnya.."Ahmad Eimran..jgn tinggalkan aku.."kata2 aku dalam mimpi..tapi cuma hati aku yang cakap cam2,x kluar suara..apa maksud ni..x kan aku jatuh aty ngn mamat bengong lagi selfish 2 kut???eiwww...NO WAY!!!!!x mungkin....aku,Nur Insyirah and that guy...hahahahahaha..lawaknya..ala...rilek la..mimpi,it is just a dream.. "morning.." "morning..anak mama ni nak ke mana?"hohohohohoho,mama dah keluar aura FBI.ape yang aku nak jawab ni?kuar ngn t.N?x leh3..semalam dah bagi reason 2...cian kat t.N lak..kan tlg aku..eish,haa dah dapat.."Asyi nak kuar g library..".ku lihat kening mama terangkat, "library?"aku angguk,"is anything wrong if aku gitau nak gi library..." "ok,but make sure that you come back early..we have guest tonight.."aku angkat thumbs up.. di lokasi yang x dapat dikesan,tapi kat malaysia..